Day20 -Observations

Firstly....
Re: Blog comments (sorry some of them are so late! was waiting for my blog to fix itself... which it never did)

Tracey: Hey I'm back to feeling hungry too after Partick cut my carbs! :-(  Good for you for staying off the chocolate!            I'm bracing my self for the next set of dietary requirements....

Terri:  Hope you had fun in italy!! (...the food temptation almost sounds torturesome) by the way it occured to me the other day that my shoe/hand size is not going to change becasue of PCP...
maybe it would be motivational to set monthly milestones to reward my self with shoe/bag shopping to push the process along..?

Marcus:  Ditto! ;-)

Karim:  I find window shopping is definaly a motivation booster for me!  I think I may want to start setting up a post-pcp splurge fund now.... weight goes down, fund goes up!

Patrick: Damn right...I used to feel bad about sending guilt waves around the office by passing on snacks as they came around, but now I actually believe I'm doing people a favour now.  Surely it couldn't hurt them to be more health conscious either!     Photos, will be on to it



Ok, so moving on to Day 20 Observations.

Assessed my current status after patricks email yesterday.... and it goes something like this:

Stress levels:  difficult to tell, becasue for the past 1.5 weeks I've been stressed with other non-PCP related stuff.... but I think this is exactly the kind of time I would be justifying a cookie stuffin'.... so I suppose not having to deal with added self loathing is a plus.

Yearning for dessert:  fluctuates. -Had to make an international call to marcus the other day so he'd talk me out of it.  It worked!

Hunger: its suprising how a 20-30gram reduction of daily carb intake can make a difference........ I'm back to being hungry again :-(

Strength:  I feel that my work outs are going better (no collapsing on the floor once I'm done, consistant control over bands as opposed to letting my arms drop on the way down with the davinchis etc), however in all hoestly, In my every day life  I feel totally drained from energy all the time!  this is worrying me.  a flight of stairs I used to be able to happily run up is now feeling like a great chore as my legs are still hurting from jump roping in the morning,,,, I hope this is just a passing transition phase.

Skin: Constant

Bowel movements:  Positive.

Libido:  increased

Body: I see.... hip bones?  coolio.

Sleep:  sub optimal... (but this is not becasue of PCP) I still dream about dessert.

Other things I noticed during the week:
External: -Women apparently dont really care about weight loss on other women....men are definalty more vigilant!  & more supportive.
-My kitchen is cleaner these days.
-Not many people in the world are actually that physically/health conscious!  A lot of people want to know about what I'm up to, but I have yet to come across anyone who wants to get on board with PCP them selves to eat better and exercise more.(no doubt I will out live them by 30years in a waay hotter body.)

Internal: 
-This whole project is really more a mental challenge than it is anything else.  the physical challenge of forcing out that last situp when I feel like my muscles are being ripped apart from within is one thing.....   but telling my self 10 times a day 'I am a goal orientated individual that likes to get shit done-  and the shit WILL get done! -i can becasue i think i can i can because i think i can......'  and actually focring my self in to believing & executing it is another thing.    So... inner strength. up!

-Intra-personal Communication.......I talk to my self more!  (I talk to my self a lot anyway... but they used to be more like mumblings.  Now they have turned in to articulated, enunciated full blown dialogues.   eg/   'Meg, I am going to tell you why you should not reach for that cookie.  First and foremost, ask your self whether you want it more than wanting to look like hot celebrity X,Y, or Z?  ...I thought not.  Now, let's cast our minds back to when you were 16 and used to work part time at millie's cookies at the arcade....   ')  
Yeah I know - verging on psychotic perhaps.  but it works!


Ok now...for some flickr-ing around....!